The tough times of being an artist typically occur when questions about your artwork crop up. Because it's never just a question. It becomes a statement of your ability to acheive your goals within this very difficult field. And I honestly don't think it has anything to do with Bea. I just get very defensive (usually without me knowing it at first, realizing it later, and not really being apologetic about it even after realizing it). I've spent so much of my life invested in this goal of becoming a successful artist that the idea of relegating it to a hobby just seems more than a bit depressing. But in the end, who do I really have to blame for my unsuccessful streak? I would say myself. And I really can't get angry when people have doubts as to whether or not I can make it happen. Now Barbara loves the idea of me being a successful artist, and wants to see it happen, but where we come into problems is that we have so much going on right now, what with planning a wedding, trying to move into a house, getting full custody of her son, and her graduating college in May (on top of full time jobs and general everyday stuff) that the art just has to take a back seat right now. And maybe that's for the best. It's a tough pill to swallow to say that maybe I just didn't do enough to promote myself or get my stuff out there, but sooner or later I'm either going to have to shit or get off the pot as they say. And the more I become a family man, the less it seems that I'm going to be able to be an art man. But the clock hasn't run out yet on that. And for all I know things will pick up once she's graduated and needs a project to work on. ;p
The one plus of this is that make up sex rocks. Just FYI.
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I'll leave the sex comments for Alan, but I will say that the hardest part of being self-employed (artist or otherwise) is making work a priority. There will always be something else going on. Alan and I struggle with this too. It's very easy to let work take a back seat to life, but if you're going to be successful at the work it needs to become a priority. Like I said, we struggle with this all the time. Lots of luck though and have fun with life :)
I guess the question is, how much do we have to love what we do to make work a priority? We essentially work so that we can live our lives, but let's face it - most of us spend 40% or more of our waking adult lives at work. Shouldn't both work AND life be rewarding? Shouldn't both be the priority? And how do we balance it all if not?
Well, if it helps - you're hired. We want that ammo can in the violets design for April's design. I need to email you but any way you can get it finished up in like... 4 or 5 days?
Mark - we miss you. What's going on in life??
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